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I have delusions.
Some are really big.
Like this one. I grew up believing that I could switch places with God.
Switch places.
Meaning I would become God and he would become me.
Coz I was convinced that he was doing such a poor job and that a person like me could do way better.
First off, he wasn’t paying enough attention to me. So I thought I had a right to access.
My life was very run of the mill.
I was an average child.
If I was God I’d change that.
I’d change everything around me.
I’d make me more special.
I’d give myself whatever I thought I needed. And that varied wildly with the times. One time I wanted to be a pilot. And I was 10. I even looked up the directories for airlines that sounded like big possibilities. And I wanted to transform directly from average everyday child to big shot airline pilot. I still laugh at that time. It was innocent yet filled with the same stuff that happens to me up till now.
So I still contemplate how my life would be if I was God.
First off there’d be more to worry about.
With me to worry about myself I thought that was enough, but I didn’t really realise that God has an entire planet to look out for. People like me, some worse, some better, some just like me.
And there’s loads of people last time I checked.
No wonder he hasn’t got that much time for me.
I figured out how God works.
He has to give every being its chance to find its way. Then once in a while he gives a friendly nudge in the right direction when the being starts to veer towards the dark side. But sometimes the nudge isn’t hard enough and the forces pull the being into the darkness.
Here’s the great part. Even in the darkness he still cares. He still contemplates for the lost being. Like what to do. So all sorts of hints are dropped, like visions of your life flashing before your eyes just before you make that all important decision to take your own life, making you ask whether your life really has lost its meaning or you need to get a new dictionary.
I suggest the dictionary.
I’m not saying you should become a religious monolith. I know people like that. Just because they’ve adopted this view of God, they decide that that’s it with their search. That’s it with their direction in life.
I believe that God’s dynamic. He changes ever so slightly as we move along that with time he becomes invisible. We don’t bother to look any more, coz after all, he’s always there.
Then come the hard times, when we ought to see him, then we don’t coz we get so caught up in looking for a solution that when he eventually hands us one we act like we got the Nobel Prize and we did it on our own.
So he ends up not getting any credit.
He doesn’t really need it. I mean, isn’t he God?
So he still watches over everything, nudging wherever he sees fit, hinting where nudges don’t work and eventually getting involved in subtle ways.
God is such an incredibly human concept that it gets so interesting to watch as we gradually abandon the whole idea of him even being there.
I have to say this is generally my idea of God. I’m not saying that I advocate for any religion in this piece.
And I used he as the pronoun for God. I know. He. Leave me alone.
Some are really big.
Like this one. I grew up believing that I could switch places with God.
Switch places.
Meaning I would become God and he would become me.
Coz I was convinced that he was doing such a poor job and that a person like me could do way better.
First off, he wasn’t paying enough attention to me. So I thought I had a right to access.
My life was very run of the mill.
I was an average child.
If I was God I’d change that.
I’d change everything around me.
I’d make me more special.
I’d give myself whatever I thought I needed. And that varied wildly with the times. One time I wanted to be a pilot. And I was 10. I even looked up the directories for airlines that sounded like big possibilities. And I wanted to transform directly from average everyday child to big shot airline pilot. I still laugh at that time. It was innocent yet filled with the same stuff that happens to me up till now.
So I still contemplate how my life would be if I was God.
First off there’d be more to worry about.
With me to worry about myself I thought that was enough, but I didn’t really realise that God has an entire planet to look out for. People like me, some worse, some better, some just like me.
And there’s loads of people last time I checked.
No wonder he hasn’t got that much time for me.
I figured out how God works.
He has to give every being its chance to find its way. Then once in a while he gives a friendly nudge in the right direction when the being starts to veer towards the dark side. But sometimes the nudge isn’t hard enough and the forces pull the being into the darkness.
Here’s the great part. Even in the darkness he still cares. He still contemplates for the lost being. Like what to do. So all sorts of hints are dropped, like visions of your life flashing before your eyes just before you make that all important decision to take your own life, making you ask whether your life really has lost its meaning or you need to get a new dictionary.
I suggest the dictionary.
I’m not saying you should become a religious monolith. I know people like that. Just because they’ve adopted this view of God, they decide that that’s it with their search. That’s it with their direction in life.
I believe that God’s dynamic. He changes ever so slightly as we move along that with time he becomes invisible. We don’t bother to look any more, coz after all, he’s always there.
Then come the hard times, when we ought to see him, then we don’t coz we get so caught up in looking for a solution that when he eventually hands us one we act like we got the Nobel Prize and we did it on our own.
So he ends up not getting any credit.
He doesn’t really need it. I mean, isn’t he God?
So he still watches over everything, nudging wherever he sees fit, hinting where nudges don’t work and eventually getting involved in subtle ways.
God is such an incredibly human concept that it gets so interesting to watch as we gradually abandon the whole idea of him even being there.
I have to say this is generally my idea of God. I’m not saying that I advocate for any religion in this piece.
And I used he as the pronoun for God. I know. He. Leave me alone.
